“Put to death therefore what is earthly in you: sexual immorality, impurity, passion, evil desire, and covetousness.” (Colossians 3:5 ESV)
Dreams have always played a significant role in my spiritual journey, serving as a unique channel through which the Lord provides direction and communicates with me. As someone who frequently experiences two or three distinct dreams in a single night, I have come to recognise the profound impact they have on my waking life. The intensity of these dreams varies; the heavier ones leave me feeling as if I have truly lived through them, while lighter dreams impart a sense of ease and weightlessness. This sensitivity to dreams has made me very intentional about what I watch, listen to, and speak, as I have discovered that these influences can affect my ability to dream or perceive what the Lord is saying to me in them.
Over time, I have come to accept that dreaming is a gift bestowed upon me by God, though this acceptance did not come easily. For years, I struggled with the responsibility that accompanies such a gift, especially when confronted with dreams that foreshadowed difficult events, such as seeing someone’s impending death, knowing there was nothing I could do to change the outcome. In those moments, even the words to pray or ask for mercy felt trapped within me, unable to be spoken. This has been a challenging aspect of my life, and it has been present ever since I was a little girl.
Several years ago, I came across a scripture verse that powerfully resonated with me. “No longer do I call you servants, for the servant does not know what his Master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from my Father I have made known to you.” (John 15:15 ESV) This verse has profoundly shaped my understanding of my relationship with the Lord. It has helped me realise that the Lord sees me as His friend. Because of this friendship and trust, He has chosen to reveal His intentions and plans to me. This revelation has been life-changing, as it provided reassurance and a sense of belonging. Growing up, I was often labelled as evil or a weirdo due to my ability to know what was going to happen before it occurred. When the dreams manifested, it made me stand out even more, adding to the feeling of being different. However, understanding that God trusts me and reveals His secrets to His friends has given me confidence and changed the way I view myself.
Last month, I embarked on a seven-day fast that proved to be the most challenging fast I have ever experienced. Before I began, I sensed that the Lord was guiding me toward a period of fasting for the purpose of cleansing. I recognised that I had developed certain toxic habits and behaviours, and during my times of prayer, the Holy Spirit was revealing these issues to me. Despite this, I found myself in denial. Yet, it became clear that the message was indeed for me. Each morning during the fast, I awoke from a vivid dream. What stood out was the recurring theme: in every dream, I found myself at ease among people who had passed away. I was not afraid of them. In fact, I felt comfortable with their presence. After waking from the first dream, I clearly heard the Holy Spirit whisper, “Put to death your earthly nature…” (Colossians 3:5). In that moment, I understood the symbolism of the dead person in my dream and realised what the Lord intended to accomplish within me. In one particular dream, someone I knew to be deceased appeared. I was fully aware of their passing and looked at them, questioning their presence with a look on my face that said, “What are you doing here?” but I did not react with fear. Instead, I interacted with others in the dream while still giving the deceased person a look that acknowledged their state, thinking, “Aren’t you dead?” The situation felt strange, especially since I remained calm throughout.
Daughters of Fire, waking up each morning with dreams of dead people, is super weird. Yet, these unsettling dreams consistently led me to the feet of Jesus, where I was compelled to let go of a particular aspect of my earthly nature. Every day, something in me had to die. It was intense! Whatever revelation He brought to me in the dream, I responded with honest cries and repentance. In these moments, I was more truthful with God than I had ever been in my life. Reflecting on those conversations now, I realize how open I was despite knowing that He already knew everything I was confessing. Still, I found comfort in telling Him, holding nothing back. Every part of myself that I surrendered was, in its own way, a form of idolatry. Surprisingly, even something as ordinary as food became significant. I hadn’t recognized how deeply food had become an issue for me until He revealed it so vividly in my dreams. The realization was overwhelming. Many of us wrestle with gluttony, yet we often disguise it or avoid admitting the truth. We might refer to ourselves as “foodies,” but, in reality, it’s important to acknowledge what it truly is. It’s time to be honest, no more pretending, but confronting gluttony for what it is.
There was a particular song that I started listening to last year, unaware of its significance in my life at the time. This song, “More Than This” by Cece Winans, became the theme for the new work that the Lord was doing within me. The lyrics, “I’ll give you more, more than this, not just a little, not just a part of me,” resonated deeply. Through these words, it felt as if God was speaking directly to me, saying, “Nadige, I want every part of you. I want the parts that you’ve never given me before. I want the parts that you don’t think matter. I want the parts that you’ve never told anyone about.” In response, I chose to surrender everything to Him. Every part of myself that had been hidden, every area that I thought was insignificant or had never been shared, I laid at the feet of Jesus. I revisited my childhood because I needed a breakthrough from childhood trauma. The experience was intense and personal, I could almost see His beautiful feet before me as I wept, pouring out my heart and soul. Though I became a snotty mess in the process, with piles of Kleenex, to Him, it was beautiful. Raw, yes, yet beautiful. Through this act of surrender, as a Daughter of Fire, being refined by my Master, I experienced a breakthrough. It was not only a spiritual transformation, but also a physical one. Prayers that had long been lifted up were answered, and the Lord moved in my family’s life in miraculous ways.
Daughters of Fire, I never expected to share this testimony, but I am doing so with the hope that your life may be illuminated just as mine was. My purpose in sharing is to encourage you to overcome, just as I did, through the blood of the Lamb. Sometimes, we convince ourselves that everything is fine, but in reality, there may be areas in our lives where we struggle with besetting sins. The Lord desires to set us free from these burdens, and I long for you to experience the same freedom that I found. The only One who can truly set you free is Jesus. There is nothing and no one else capable of delivering you. However, it is essential that you confess your sins to Him, repent, and allow Him to set you free. Living a life as a believer involves constant renewal; we have never fully arrived, and our desire should always be to please our Heavenly Father. Each of us may experience the Lord’s guidance in different ways. For some, it may be through dreams or visions; for others, it might be through His Word or His voice. What remains certain is that the Lord is pouring out His Spirit and is searching for vessels willing to receive what He offers. Ask yourself: are you too full of yourself, or do you truly want to be filled with Him? The Lord is waiting for you. I love you, and I’m praying for you, but Jesus loves you best!
Daughter Of Fire 